I would like to share some of my thoughts today about the things which are going on behind the curtain of my diary entries and this blog. At the same time I want to tell you that there may soon be stories about me and my family organizing orgies, being involved in sex scandals and other absurd allegations online. Let me explain you how I get to this assumption.
I have written a lot of entries in which I criticized many different people and their actions. It started in August 2009, when we were in Arizona. There I wrote and spoke about Nithyananda for the first time however without mentioning his name. I had had a bad experience with his followers and my main point of focus was that I was and still am against human worship. I believe that everyone is equal and nobody is higher or greater than others.
Since the first January 2008 I have written this diary daily and without interruption. I feel a certain responsibility for creating awareness in our society and this is why from time to time I also wrote about fake gurus, about magic and miracles performed on the name of religion and more. Even when I was still a religious-minded person, I was always against creating superstition and with all the experience that I had made with such things in my life, I had a lot to share.
In the beginning I took care not to mention anybody’s name. Last year however I started writing names and identities, too, because I wanted to make clear who I am talking about. Otherwise followers tend to think I am writing about everyone else, just not about their own guru.
Today my blog has become a place for many such revelations. I raise my voice not only about particular persons but also about organizations, political parties, governments and institutions. From the 1220 diary entries I have written until this day, the number of those articles in which I openly criticize such a person or group of people is comparatively small but they remain those which have most feedback and stir the highest emotions.
Many people love it but in my outspoken way, I have unintentionally and without saying or writing anything wrong also created many enemies. They may be followers of those who I am writing against, I don’t really know. I don’t know these people. They are not those who silently leave and simply stop reading my words, they are also not those who write their own opinion in a nice and polite message to which I can then reply that everyone has a right to have their own opinion. They are those who write angrily in comments, social networks or on their own websites.
When I talk about fraud promises, fake miracles and the history of sex scandals of different Hindu gurus in India, they say that I get paid by Christian missionaries.
When I talk about wrong concepts in the Christian religion or the Islam, they believe me to be a Hindu, angry that Christians and Moslems live in my country.
When I write about the BJP or the RSS in India and their fanatic Hindu ideas, they say I am funded by the Congress party. When I write about the corruption in the Congress, they say I am member of the BJP.
I have however not any such allegiance, not to any party and not to any religion. I am only human and believe in love. I belong only to love and follow only that. I don’t sell my words to the highest bidder. I appreciate the good sides of all religions, parties, institutions and individuals but I criticize and condemn the negative ones alike.
There are many different forums and websites on the internet where people write similar opinions. If you see the authors there, they are nearly always writing with an alias or anonymously. This possibility of hiding one’s identity has positive and negative sides. On one hand it is good for the authors, as it gives these people a platform to express themselves and share their experiences without exposing their identity to potential attacks of the people they are writing against. On the other hand you never know whether that person is real or just inventing a story.
But here I am, sitting with my website online, my name and picture displayed publicly, my identity, my history, background and my opinion out in the open. There is no way to hide anything and I don’t want to hide anything either. I lived my life honestly and am sharing it here with you very openly. I am writing about what I did, who I was before and who I am now. I am always in a process of change and my mind keeps on developing. So there is nothing that I want to hide.
I have however now realized that some people prefer hiding their identity to avoid such attacks that I have already written about before, too.
Authors who write only about one certain person or organization have only that group of people against them. I however write about the system which is wrong in so many different places and thus have created a lot of enemies in different organizations and different parts of the world. There is not only one person against me but many.
Sometimes they are very angry and want me to delete a diary entry but we take care in writing and make sure that there are only facts, personal experiences and my personal opinion in those articles. And in that case I see no reason why I should delete any of my entries.
Those people sometimes start writing on social networks and their own websites about me. There they don’t only abuse me but also my family. We have read insults for my brothers Yashendu and Purnendu as well as for my wife Ramona but also for our children and the charity project. They wonder whether I was really in the cave although there are videos and thousands of people have seen it. They question the reason of calling myself a Swami when I am not a Hindu although I have explained even in a diary post that I don’t care if you call me just Balendu. They ask what kind of visa Ramona, a German citizen, has for coming to India although we are married and spouses get a PIO card without any problem. They say it looks like military when our children do yoga, just because we bought a sports dress for everyone in the same style, as they could not afford buying one themselves. They believe our children look malnourished, probably because they are not overweight as so many children are nowadays. You can rest assured that we feed them well and even take care of their medical checkups. I really wonder what this all has to do with what I am writing about. The list of such statements is already very long and most of them are just ridiculous.
Obviously these people always write with a fake name or anonymously. One of those comments had me write today’s diary. I was told by one person that it was not any problem for them to start creating stories about me and my family, too, and spread them around the internet.
So do not wonder if in future you find stories from any person about me and my family. Maybe they write about sex parties and orgies during our chakra dance party or that we actually run a brothel at our Ashram. You never know what they can think of and they can write anything from any name with the intention of harming us. The good thing however is that everybody can see when it was published. The internet will always keep this record. Was it before or after I wrote about their guru, organization or group? I will not wonder if at some point such stories will appear because there are many people who would like to write those things.
There are however just as many and even more who support me. From their love and appreciation I get the courage to write more. I am very thankful to those people who support me in this, all my friends from all over the world who are happy that I boldly speak out. To those who mention our website and name on websites, forums and blogs.
We even get emails in which we are asked to write more about other fake gurus, in which victims and opponents of such groups give us names, stories and websites so that we can publish them on our platform and thus make them public for many to read. In this way it can save many people from bad experiences.
I am happy to have your support and to read your comments which inspire me to write more. If you want to share your story yourself, you can write and post it in www.fake-guru.com, a forum that we opened for exactly this purpose. Those who want me to write about someone on my diary, please send me email to info@jaisiyaram.com and provide your information in detail. You can trust that I will keep your name secret. For me to be sure however that you are a real person, I would love to read your name rather than reading from an anonymous person. If you convince me that there is someone who did wrong and thinks wrong, I will give my support to the cause of making this public.
I am not against any singular person or organization but against a system, an ideology and a certain mindset. Thank you again for your support!
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Dear Swami Ji,I wanted to add my short comment to say that I am thankful that you keep writing and wish you courage and faith in what you do. Since I live abroad without close friends, I visit your bloq often and feel as if you would be my friend. I have written few critics as a response to you, but I did not know that people like to talk behing your back so much.
What I cann tell to make you smile is that once I was acquinted with a magazine editor and he mentioned printed media business secret – if you keep mentioning sex in you writen texts, whatever you say about this subject, you will always have enough readers. Even bad publicity is a publicity and you should not worry that the negative comments will outweight the positive ones. I guess there is no way to make others mind calm unless they wish it for themselves.
Dita
This makes me think of how we can get in our lives as much drama and conflict as we invite. If I were to go on a big public crusade against something, I would expect a lot of conflict and drama to arise as a result. If I only spoke to only some people about the issue, probably there would be much less conflict and drama about it as a result. But if I kept totally quiet about it, maybe there would be no conflict and drama over that issue. So the drama and conflict “comes with the territory” of being outspoken about an issue. And to a large extent, we get as much as we choose, depending on how outspoken we choose to be. It’s all part of the game of life and how we choose to play it. Not one better than another, just what one chooses to do. Some choose more drama, some choose to have less. The gossip and counter-charges you expect are probably what anyone who is so outspoken about this issue would expect to arise. I was originally interested in your posts in part because I think the false guru issue is a very important issue to be aware of. I told you about some other major false gurus I know not so you would criticize them too, but because it’s an area of mutual interest and I thought you might be interested, and I wanted to see if you knew about them already. But all the bad info about them is already public and plentiful, and anyone who is interested can easily see all the bad info about them. On the other hand, if someone is determined to not believe the bad info, no matter how plentiful and public it is, they may never acknowledge the truth of it. That’s how human nature often is, people see what they want to see, and don’t see what they are not ready to see.
Dear Deniz,Thank you again for your nice comment. What you said about human nature is absolutely true. They see only what they want to see. Many followers of those false Gurus know what their guru is doing. If somebody else did the same, they would consider it as wrong but because their own Guru does it, they keep their eyes closed and I even heard some followers say ‘The Master knows what is right or wrong and whatever he does is right. That’s the first lesson that they have learned from their Guru.
Truth always comes out in the end.. we live in a time when simply an accusation,, not even truth can ruin a lifetime reputation.. I appreciate your candidness and good work with the children.. loving hugs and support..
Thank you Mary for your support, Fully agree with you. Much Love to you.
I have stayed in your ashram. Whoever say bad things about your ashram is wrong. I can testify it. I will always be by your side.
Your ashram is a great place ..i will never forget the 4 days i stayed there …and the kids are very Beautiful..The small family is so loving and caring ..
Dear Olivier and Chiaa, Thank you for your beautiful words and of course you both can tell who were there and experienced yourself. Lots of Love to both of you.
Any time you have a strong opinion one way or another, you will create opposition to yourself. It is just the nature of human minds and the diversity on this planet. You simply could never please everyone. But it doesn’t mean you should stop expressing your strong opinion! Stay true to your heart and your voice within and you will continue to feel peaceful and content, no matter how many people oppose you. 🙂