Obviously the diary entries from the past days are a reflection of the thoughts that are going on in my mind. When I think about the many changes that I have made in my life, I realize that there are many people who have either changed with me as well or whom I can still accept – and who accept me – even after having completely different opinions. I am very happy about each and every of these persons.
If I take a look at my family, I cannot help but feel an immense pride that they have come along with me on this way of big changes! They have made so many changes in their own lives, away from religion, away from ceremonies, away from scriptures. My parents, even my grandmother, for whom religion has always been a big part of their lives, have left so many of their habits and convictions behind that it seems incredible just looking back. If there were points that they did not agree upon, they accepted my thinking and respected my decision to go another way.
About my brothers I can say that I have always felt them by my side throughout the whole process of change. I did not ask anybody to change their thinking with me. I was always open about what happened within me and they were first-hand witnesses of the experiences I made and which moved my heart. Feeling along, thinking along, their own thinking and emotions changed as well.
Finally, my wife Ramona. When we met, we both were different people. Very different from who we were now and I can say proudly that while I was a reason for her changing in many ways, she gave reason for me to change in equal measure, if not more. She is the one where I pour out my heart and I listen to the pouring of hers.
Also among my friends however, I have witnessed changes. Of course, they changed in their way while I changed in mine but the beautiful thing is that I have friends who are not only accepting but also supporting these changes.
My dear Michael, my first German friend, with whom I have spent hours talking about everything, including god. When I told him that I don’t actually believe in god anymore, a wonderful conversation was sparked during which he told me that the neuroscience, a field in which he as a psychologist is very interested in, doesn’t care about the question whether there is a god or not.
My dear Thomas and Iris, together with whom we have performed countless ceremonies in the past and who have themselves made their share of experiences in the field of fake gurus. Sharing all our emotions along the way, we have developed further, away from the past and into a future with new priorities in life. Throughout all the years, connected deeply by love.
There are several more of such friends, spread around the world, who have welcomed me again and again in their homes, who have stayed in touch over thousands of kilometers and thus shared my journey.
Others however are less close due to my changes and many have left my life completely as well. I feel happy about the fact that I can accept all of that and just love those around me from deep within my heart!
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