In early summer 2002 I thus reached Luneburg again and my friend, the doctor, and his family welcomed me happily at their home. He had some patients and clients who were interested in coming to my spiritual healing sessions but as mentioned I was also looking forward to call the girl with whom I had had sex for the first time in my life.
Let me try to explain my feelings properly. I had talked on phone with that girl maybe twice from India. We were definitely not in a relationship and we were also not in love. I had a certain excited expectation though. I thought I would come to Luneburg, call her, we would meet and I imagined we would have such a nice time as before. It had been her initiative before and I was sure it would be exactly the way I imagined.
So I called her after arriving in Luneburg. She was happy to hear that I was back and said that she would pick me up in the evening. I told this to my friend and he gave me a spare key, just in case I came back late. I told him I would probably come back in the morning but he smiled and said ‘Just keep it with you.’ I was picked up and was looking forward to have a nice evening.
Having arrived in her apartment, we sat down and talked and I asked her how she was, what had happened in her life since I had seen her last. That was the point when the evening started turning another direction than imagined. She told that she had got married! Well, not officially and in front of a court or in church but they considered each other husband and wife. When I asked where her husband was, she said that he was at his place.
I was a bit confused and thought I had not understood. How come they don’t live together if they are married? I asked her this and for a while she was busy trying to explain me that they were unofficially married but that they still were not committed to each other. With my little knowledge of English and especially of the western culture it took me some time to understand that they were free to have sex with other people, too. If he slept with someone else, she would not mind and if she now spent the night with me, he would not mind.
In the following talk I got to know a few more stories about her life and her relationships but then we were sitting next to each other quietly for a few minutes. This is when I decided to ask her to drop me back home. She looked at me in surprise. Why did I want to go? Her boyfriend or husband would really not mind if we slept with each other and that was what I had come for after all! I told her that I did not feel comfortable with this and would rather leave. She confirmed again ‘Are you sure?’ I said yes and was happy to have that key in my pocket so that I could enter the house quietly and without waking anyone up.
Next week I will tell you more about my feelings and thoughts in this situation.
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Wow, I’m sure this was quite a shock! And also a bit of a disappointment. I don’t really understand relationships like that and can’t imagine myself being comfortable with that situation either! I’m glad that you were strong and stable in who you are and decided to leave.
It is fun to hear stories of your life! I enjoy this. 🙂